I'm Eighteen! :)

The day I was born there were severe blizzards. Now I'm eighteen and the weather's giving it rice. I'll choose to believe it's a sign! :L xxxx

Hello Serenity

Hold my hand

a while

as we fly

our little kite

of multi-coloured

ribboned delight

as we sail

our dreams

into an air

that will care for

and mother them

lead me down

hopeful one-day streams

and dance me through

bluebell fields

help me craft

my own floral crown

put on my

petalled majesty

drench

my soul

in an overwhelming

sense of belonging

softly stamp my wrist with

'joyful participation'

at the door of this club

we affectionately call

Life

Stand with me

a while

reminding me I am

protected by the Universe,

a sky washed with strawberry bonbon,

cotton plants,

and a facial paint box

or three

glow on me

build up my jenga pieces

feed me glee

then

when I have strength enough

to heal my own peach-bruises

bathe me in glitter
and soak me free

and I will smile &

whisper
Hello Serenity.

Sad Little Smile

There's a framed memory on the living room bookshelf:
of a little girl
running
through woods
and clinging onto
oaked nature

Two
bluebell eyes
peer up
in youthful wonder
as her
sad
little
smile
asks:
Will You Be My Friend?

There's a framed memory on the living room bookshelf:
My ageless soul encased in Kodak film.

Innocence is bliss

i did wonder who she was
as i entered those chipped green gates
all those years ago
chesnut waves bouncing
pink school satchel neatly fastened

thirteen years later
i still wonder
staring back at those same eyes
in the glint of a half-filled champagne flute

has anything really changed since walking through?

her hair is paler
and her lips are painted rose
but still
the same bright eyes blink back
vibrant in anticipation
for the world she decrees
Beautiful

the way she looks
through those eyes
seems little different
from what she saw
fifteen summers ago

but how can all this time
have past; certainties flung
into oblivion
hearts torn
achievements stock-piled
and wounds mended-
and her mind be no different?

maybe she was just born
with an old soul
or perhaps
the best eyes to peer from
really are
those of a child.

You humiliate my soul

Patronising
Adj- (used of behavior or attitude) characteristic of those who treat others with condescension, behaving with an air of superiority.

I dare you

I dare you
to make my soul cower
just one more time

I dare you
to make me
in a throw-away moment
forget every kind word ever kissed
in my direction

I dare you
to make me ashamed
to have ever opened my mouth
and allowed words to fall out

I dare you
to package me off
with a pan and a brush


I dare you
to scream until I
attempt to sweep
my own small imploding limbs
and my
even smaller
imploding thoughts
into the
trashthat you decree equates to them

I dare you
to flick me aside
as a thing
which has failed to
inspire or impress you

I dare you to
pepper
my eyes
just one more time

Go on-I fucking dare you.

I am exhausted

and happy. As in, my body is exhausted, but my mind is one alert, sparky mawfucka! I feel as if anything could happen today. And I KNOW anything could happen any day, but we get caught up in routine and forget that, don't we?

I'm drawn to the idea of possibility. Moth to flame scenario, and it's both my downfall and my saving grace, because being aware of so many possibilities will at times utterly devestate me, and at other times, make me feel like I'm Lord of this Dance...

WE LIVE IN A BEAUTIFUL WORLD, YEAH WE DO, YEAH WE DO
- we really DO though, I've decided. For every terrifying, disturbing thing, there are at least two breath-taking, hopeful things. Things which shake you up and make you pay attention.

Soundtrack to my paused life 1.

Kanye- Runaway

the 35 minute music video made me cry, it's a work of art
Temper Trap- Soldier on

this song allows me to get into an emotional STATE, but in a positive, after-glow inducing way
Katy B- Katy on a Mission

An excellent tune to put your face on to, before heading out for the night..
Rihanna- Fading Away

just soft, easy listening
Temper Trap- Sweet Disposition

an eternal favourite, this song is silky, one that transports me to summer streams, and strawberries in the baking heat. quite a feat, considering the current chill- ice, and Christmas is in the air.

I'm getting dressed as I type, ready to run into town to pick up a few things, and cradle a hot chocolate until the world demands me back :) Am's just popped into my room, that girl is beautiful, and more than that, good for me. I think I'm unlucky, and then I look at my friends. I'm up there with the luckiest. I ought to count my blessings more often :)